By Arienne Thompson, USA TODAY
From the outside looking in, Hollywood star Bradley Cooper appears to have it all.
Hit career (Hangover franchise). Hot girlfriend (Zoe Saldana). Hunky looks (duh).
But all is not what it seems, as he explains to The Hollywood Reporter in a cover profile the trade mag did on Cooper called "The Serious Evolution of a Leading Man."
In it, Cooper, 37, talks candidly about his struggles with substance abuse, feelings of inadequacy and a childhood of surgeries.
His catalyst to go sober at 29: "I was at a party and deliberately bashed my head on the concrete floor - like 'Hey, look how tough I am!' And I came up, and blood dripped down. And then I did it again. I spent the night at St. Vincent's Hospital with a sock of ice, waiting for them to stitch me up ..."
Private insecurities and substance abuse: "I was so concerned about what you thought of me, how I was coming across, how I would survive the day. I always felt like an outsider. I just lived in my head. I realized I wasn't going to live up to my potential, and that scared the hell out of me. I thought, 'Wow, I'm actually gonna ruin my life; I'm really gonna ruin it.' "
Childhood operations on his inner ear: "Then I started diving very young, and I punctured it and had four or five operations from 5 to 18 years old. ... I have a hole in my eardrum now and can't swim without earplugs."
Brush with plastic surgery and scarring: A lamp "crashed, (hit him) and blood was squirting out. I couldn't move part of my face for six months. I had to get plastic surgery."